Release Inner Conflicts - Attract Inner Peace - Blog Post 12

2017 was my inner healing, self discovery year. Let me tell you the cleanse started from the start. I can remember it clearly and so precise. 

Have you ever been so full of shit? Yes, like literally full of shit? Well this was me, my shit was actually shit built up in my body, with no release. Constipation on high.  Shit that was backed up and stacked up on top of each other.  I later realized my backed up shit was backed up emotions ready to be released. 

[This was the start of me healing]

It was like my time had come, for me to start inner healing, to discover inner peace. I wanted to connect with my natural being within. I wanted to discover me for who I was.  Somehow I was led to visit an Herbalist in ATL. I tried going to the doctors, they would examine my body, see the poop backed up, so bad it was in my back. I was in pain pain y'all, but still there was nothing they could do. I knew there was a natural way to help me release. 

The herbalist was the start of my mental, inner cleanse. The rest went like this:

1. I started eating based off my blood type, right away the shit cleared out of me

2. We moved to FL - Away from any distractions

3. I connected with myself 

4. Yoga was my release 

5. I cut my phone off

6. Became a Doula (delivered some babies, the most beautiful, and fulfilling experience )

7.  I remember searching ways to meditate. I experienced an outer body experience for the first time

8. I became a minimalist 

9.  I silenced myself, in order to reconnect 

10. Loc'd my hair ( this really was the start of me accepting my natural self) 

11. I connected with my mind, connected with my thoughts 

My journey was not easy. During my cleanse things came up. Old ways, and emotions, child hood emotions, love emotions, fantasy emotions. I was releasing all of it. Some emotions cleansed in different ways, some caused hurt, some caused pain, some caused relationships to go. 

I kept telling my mind that I wanted to connect, build a connection with my inner source, my inner being, see the natural light of me. That's the energy I put out, and that's the energy I received. You see connecting with yourself is a real conversation. You have to constantly talk to yourself. I had to ask myself how do I want to feel, what centers my mind, the energy I wanted to attract, and the energy I didn't want around. This was my self talk during all phases of my self discovery. 

The real connection was when I accepted my natural being. My natural hair, my natural look, my natural nails. I stripped it all away, and got to the bare. The core of who I was. The focus was no longer on the physical it was on my inner being. 

I started limiting myself from distractions.  I would turn my phone off for days, I was careful as to what I allowed to enter in my mind.  I needed to hear my own thoughts. 

When you start to get to the core, discovering your inner peace. It's easy to feel like you're depressed and not worthy. There were times when I felt depressed and could't shake that "uhh" feeling.  But I couldn't allow my mind to take me there, I had to pull myself out of it. This was me talking to myself and strengthening my mind. 

Your mind is a powerful tool. It is your thoughts, it is what you see, it is what you hear. The journey to inner peace and self discovery is just that a journey, not a destination, but a journey. 

It can be done. 

Embrace the journey, acknowledge the cleanse [ the shit being released], center your mind, [ think, what makes you happy, what brings you joy, what feels good to you]. 

Fast forward to today. I am walking in my power. Others opinions no longer guide me. I feel whole. I feel renewed. I practice mindful thinking. I vibrate with my frequency. Once I connected, everything else did too. That's the beauty of inner peace, and self discovery.